Additional Debt

Today, I think I have done the most crazy thing in my life. Yeah, I put additional debt on my shoulder.

Why I did so? For fun? Absolutely not for fun. This is for a better future and to achieve some of the goal in my life.

It is worth to do so now. So, guys, I am ready! I must get myself ready as soon as possible to fight for my future! I will reload myself with a powerfull armour to go for a battle.

Fight!Fight!Fight!

P/S: Special thanks to SP and DY for the help. :D

且行且珍惜

今天，同事send 我这首歌曲。我想，有时人与人之间的情感很特别。开始是一种安排，结束也是一种过程。所以，听到这首歌曲真的很多感触。

最近，收到很多的祝福，当然也有很多的“为什么”。我想，很多事情，我不能以三言两语就可以说得明白。再怎么说都好，这都是两个人的事情。因此，真的真的不要再追根究底。在这事情里，没有所谓的对或错。最终，是我选择离开。当然，这有我自己的原因。所幸的是，这得到了她的谅解和信任。这也是这么多年的感情所建立的信任吧。我想她的伤害会更大吧！所以希望大家都能将心比心，留点空间给我们。那天，心里很痛，因为听到一些闲言闲语。也有一些无谓的人加入了一些揣测。当然，我没有权利阻止，也不会过问，可是这些毫无建设的言语，只会加深对她的伤害。

这几天，得到了很多人的陪伴、支持，心里是感激的。我想，在这么困难的日子，关心和支持是极度需要的。我也希望你也能够。加油！至少，现在回忆里的你是美丽的，一切都很美好。

迎著风向前行
我们已经一起走到这里
偶而想起过去
点点滴滴
如春风化做雨
润湿眼底
憎相会爱别离
人生怎可能尽如人意
缘字终难猜透
才进心里却已然离去
没有谁能忘记这真挚情谊
你会祝福我我也会祝福你
且把泪水轻轻拭
去期待再相遇
就算相见无期
在某个夜里你会想起我我也会想起你
默契永存你我心底
情缘系千里
且行且珍借
偶而想起过去
点点滴滴如春风化做雨
润湿眼底憎相会爱别离
人生怎可能尽如人意
缘字终难猜透
才进心里却已然离去
没有谁能忘记这真挚情谊
你会祝福我我也会祝福你
且把泪水轻轻拭去
期待再相遇
就算相见无期
在某个夜里你会想起我我也会想起你
默契永存你我心底
情缘系千里且行且珍借
没有谁能忘记这真挚情谊
你会祝福我我也会祝福你
且把泪水轻轻拭去
期待再相遇就算相见无期
在某个夜里你会想起我我也会想起你
默契永存你我心底
情缘系千里
窗外景物飞逝
机缘轻触匆匆来匆匆去
且行且珍惜
且行且珍惜
且行且珍惜

轰轰烈烈？还是苟且偷生？

轰轰烈烈？还是苟且偷生？
轰轰烈烈？还是苟且偷生？
轰轰烈烈？还是苟且偷生？
轰轰烈烈？还是苟且偷生？
轰轰烈烈？还是苟且偷生？
轰轰烈烈？还是苟且偷生？
轰轰烈烈？还是苟且偷生？


我不知道。
只知道现在
感受着窒息的痛苦
敏感时刻...
请不要挑战界限！

Raining night

Last night is a raining night. I enjoy the joy of walking in the rain and the moment when I hold the warm corn.

I was at Gurney Drive awaiting the arrival of the rain. I saw the sky turn to dark and the view became blur. The dim and yellowish street light gave a warm feeling especially in the cold weather.

I feel extreamly clean and calm when I was driving in the raining night. And the song from Norah Jones just give a perfect match to the environment. Great night but alone.

Appreciation

Thanks for the meaniful Sunday and I know is not good to keep you all worried about me. I am ok and I will be fine very soon.

Thanks

The day has come

The day has come. It has been eneded with a lot of "why". But please forgive me for not doing anymore clarification. I am sad though I am the one who make the decision.


It was a precious memory that I have to be with her since 1998. A lot of my friends feel that it was not worth to give up. For me, i do admit, but you know, something in this world are totally out of your control.


I still can feel the warm of her tears when it dropped on my face. I will never forget every single moment that we have been together. The happy moment, the hard time as well as the sweet time are all unforgotten.


Stay cool dear, you should have a britghter future without my constraint. I understand your feeling as I am also suffering it. But, I think there are much more things that we can do for our own and for our family. I am glad that you've put your trust on me. Do live happier, stronger than ever. I know you can do so.

What a day..

What a day. Wake up 6 sth in the morning and reach office arr 7 sth.

Listening to the song from Emi Fujita, album , her voice remind me the sadness of her last night.

I know it must be a pain and dissapointment when the words coming out from my mouth. And, I know clearly that she is the one that I love the most till now. But, it is so ridiculous that i left the one who I love the most in sadness and tears over her face.

I think things have changed through out the years and indeed, I still not able to accept it. When I was in Pangkor last weekend, my friend asked me in the game of "Truth or Dare", "Have you ever thought to be with her for your rest of your life." After a short consideration, "Yes" is the one. Yes, I have to admited that she is the one that I ever thought to be with her for my rest of life. However, my thought has changed especially in this year. I found myself is not able to face the future, I have lost all the confidence with it, I lost everything. And the sad thing is, I am not able to handle the relationship that tie to me. That is why I need to leave. You may say that I am only make excuse to myself and try to escape from the reality. But what can I do? After stripping away the strong shell outer, what I have is only a weak soul with no goal and no confidence.

I feel so sad and so sorry to her. And, I really need some times to myself. I know is a bit selfish, but without doing this, I really don't have the courage to continue my path

Hmm... 8 sth.... in the morning

The song has turned to Desperado, a song from Eagles, but what I am listening now is sang by Emi Fujita. She has added more loneliness and sadness into the song. Suit my feeling

Desperado, why dont you come to your senses?
You been out ridin fences for so long now
Oh, youre a hard one
I know that you got your reasons
These things that are pleasin you
Can hurt you somehow

Don you draw the queen of diamonds, boy
Shell beat you if shes able
You know the queen of heats is always your best bet

Now it seems to me, some fine things
Have been laid upon your table
But you only want the ones that you cant get

Desperado, oh, you aint gettin no youger
Your pain and your hunger, theyre drivin you home
And freedom, oh freedom well, thats just some people talkin
Your prison is walking through this world all alone

Dont your feet get cold in the winter time?
The sky wont snow and the sun wont shine
Its hard to tell the night time from the day
Youre loosin all your highs and lows
Aint it funny how the feeling goes away?

Desperado, why dont you come to your senses?
Come down from your fences, open the gate
It may be rainin, but theres a rainbow above you
You better let somebody love you, before its too late

Hope she will be fine and happier than ever.